It is hard to know where to start.  Some of you have known me for a long time and some of you not so much.  Sometimes life becomes mundane and purposeless feeling to me.  I keep trying to figure out why this keeps coming into my mind.  I keep trying to find purpose over and over again.  When I review my life I find it difficult to even believe that it is true.  

 I was given a challenge last evening by Rob Baxter, and to top it off I was given a dream proposing the exact same things, not to mention I knew in my heart for a long time I was supposed to do something such as this.

Here it is, I am to share with you my testimonies, the good, the bad the ugly and the inconceivable!!  What I dreamed last night was this, I was to share with you my current situation and then continue in little blips sharing how I ended up here.  I am to divide it into three categories, my personal testimony , the past events that led to this and finally what Father is teaching me at the moment. 

I will be honest with you that this is not easy for me, sharing testimony of things to be praised not difficult, but sharing with you the other things I don’t like it, it makes me concerned for being judged, offending others and the like.  Well at this point I am more concerned with my obedience to Father than I am to what I do to upset some of you. 

I will be vague and discreet when I tell things that may include others as I won’t say their names etc, but I must include that they existed in order to properly tell my story. 

I know that I am not alone in what is going on in my life and what has happened.  I have seen far too much to just keep it quiet.  I figure even if I can help one person at least one time it makes all of this worth it. 

I decided that this would only be an intro to the assignment per say.  I will howeer start today with the first accounting.  I will not be approaching my story in a linear fashion.  I will start at the end and I will randomly share bits and pieces as they are led upon my heart to share.  In the end however I figure I may be able to put together a linear timeline of events.  That is what I saw in my dream.  We shall see.  I hope this will help you all as we join together and fight this onslaught that is approaching.  We need to be equipped and ready for this and I am going to encourage you along the way to realize inside of you what needs to come to the surface.  We are all needed and we all need to be ready. 

The War is raging right now and I feel it more than I ever have!!!  Instead of giving up like I really, really wanted to last night, I am going to run at it head first and fight with everything that I have.  The fuel of this fire within me is actually love for all of you;  my family and dear friends.  Father has given me sight and gifts that are meant for your benefit, not mine.   I see that now, I was created to serve and to love and it is time for me to step up to the plate and be who Father has created me to be.  This is exactly what darkness has feared the most. 

So here I am Father, send me……………

 

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