My Personal Pathway

Away We Go!! Article 2

Just in case, here are the previous articles in this series.

http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/08/30/my-personal-assignment-from-father/

http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/08/31/so-it-begins-article-1/

My Story

The day I left, I tried to stay nearby but there was no room in the inn.  I ended up going quite far away, with permission from the police to find a place to stay.  That eventually fell through and I ended up in a domestic violence shelter.   It was me and my little son.  I had tried to get my daughter out as well but she was forcibly removed from my truck by one of my older children and hidden away from me.  The police came and asked my daughter if she wanted to stay or go.  She said if I go my papa and my brother and sisters will stop loving me, if I stay I know my mommy will always love me.  The Police man had her stay based on this reasoning.

My oldest son had already left with my baby boy and had taken him to the police station.  I remember the Police man who was local and knew all of us told me “to get the hell out of Dodge”  He said my family was acting like a mob and to not look at them, he said just look at me and don’t listen to them.  I remember the children’s father dropping down to his knees yelling at me why why why as he pounded his fists into the ground.

I remember thinking that he told my children to do whatever it takes to keep me from leaving with the little ones and that he had already given me the you’re not welcome here any longer.  So if I had to leave within a couple weeks anyways why are you surprised by this?

I went away that day and it was intense.  It took me two weeks to be able to eat properly again from the punches to my jaw.  I couldn’t press charges against my daughters even though the police man really wanted me to.  I didn’t want them to have their lives messed up by this.  So I let it go.

The path to understanding my work for Father has been an interesting one.  It seems Abba wanted me to see nearly everything as part of my training.  I used to joke that I don’t only get Navy seals training of the Kingdom of God, I get the Specialized Navy Seals of the Navy Seals Training of the Kingdom of God.

This was never taken lightly and I do have to say that I am much stronger now than I was then.  The house that I was living in at the time just so happened to be, ironic at best, the home built by the first socialists to come to America.  The men who built it where professed High priests in the church of Satan.  Chew on that one just a bit…….

I had no idea when I moved in that this was the case.  Well needless to say I had many odd and strange experiences there.  I found weird things and saw even weirder things.  I could write a series of novels on the learning experiences I had on this property.  I will choose one of those experiences now.

Testimony

It all began when my 6 year old at the time came to me asking a very unique question.  She said mommy is it ok if I go to Heaven with the pony from my little pony?  She said I know you have always said I shouldn’t go anywhere without asking you.  So Can I go please please??

I was like say what?  I said no absolutely not.  I haven’t met this pony and I really don’t believe you would be safe sweetheart.  She was like oh, and I said I am very concerned about this.  How did you meet this pony?  She said that they are in my room.  I said they??

Yeah there are a whole bunch of things up there.  The head one sits up high in the corner of my room and it has slit like eyes and they are red.  The rest of them are down here and the have green slit eyes.  She said that when the one up high raises his arm all the others raise their arms.  She said it was kinda wild and the pony said it was all ok.

She said I really want to go to Heaven can I go?    Well I went up to her room and I cleared all of them out by the power of the Holy Spirit and it was finally quiet.

Well the next evening, she came back to me with the same questions about going to Heaven with the Pony. I took care of them again and I asked Father why this kept happening.

This happened a few more days and then I asked my daughter why she thought they were coming back.  She told me that the pony told her where to find this beautiful necklace out by the road.  The pony told me to never take the necklace off.  She was so excited by her gift.

Well it took seconds for me to realize what was happening.  I knew that an object that allowed certain entrance had been cursed and given to my daughter.  This was a direct all access link to my home.  I knew it needed to go.  It was an engraved metal, maybe a type of brass or something.

I was able to get the necklace from her and get rid of it.  When I made them go this time they never reappeared again.

The power of God is amazing, unfortunately sometimes there are legal rights that get in our way.  These legal rights can be addressed and because of the shed blood of Yahshua we can overcome these things.

Prophetic Insights and Life Applications

It has been quite difficult to have seen and experienced these things from that marriage that is no more and not be affected by it.  Father has me on a journey of healing.  Each new days offers new hopes and visions.  It also requires me to do some work.  I have to talk to Father and work through these feelings and emotions.

Sometimes I find Cognitive dissonance at work or even Stockholm Syndrome.  I find that my responses to things are not always normal.  Sometimes I am so afraid of being hurt that I just concede to things against my desires just to “protect” myself.  It is strange how my ideas of what it means to protect myself often are not protective at all.  I know that I am not alone in this.

https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-cognitive-dissonance-2795012

https://counsellingresource.com/therapy/self-help/stockholm/

I have come a long way, yet I still have so much more to learn.  I can’t tell you how many times I look at my life, the warfare the pain and abuse, and I wonder if any of this could be real.  I wonder if I have created all of this in my head and ask myself if I have lost my mind?

You see my life doesn’t fit in that neat little box that everyone seems to think life should fit into.  The things I have seen defy everything I was ever taught in life as a young one.

My life was supposed to be simple, Get married to a man that would protect me, have children make dinner and clean the house.  I was to have fun and make memories with my family and go to church and love people.

WRONG!!!!!

I was welcomed into the real world where none of those fairytales existed for me.  In fact most of the worldview I came into adulthood with has been shattered and a whole new one is forming.  How’s that for a reality check?

I say this cause I know some of you may be at different places along a similar journey.  I want you to love yourself and know that you are loved by Father especially.  I blamed myself for absolutely everything and I see now that somethings are not my fault.

I have only survived cause I know I am loved by Father and that He has a plan and a destiny for my life.  He has a plan and a destiny for your life!!!!  Nothing is too extreme for Father!!!

God is LOVE!!

 

©2018 Jennifer Wallace

 

 

 

1 thought on “Away We Go!! Article 2

  1. Thank you for sharing your story. Your testimony has provided me with tremendous encouragement and has inspired me to persevere through my own trials. God is using you to spread joy and hope which is something many of us need so badly these days. I can’t wait to see how this story unfolds and what blessings await you on the other side. Keep up the fantastic work and God bless!

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