Just in case, here are the previous articles in this series.
http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/08/30/my-personal-assignment-from-father/
http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/08/31/so-it-begins-article-1/
http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/08/31/away-we-go-article-2/
http://www.faithgirl1111.com/2018/09/09/wait-what-article-3/
My Story
So now what? I have learned that I have a long road ahead of me. I have learned that I need much healing and I have great hope. The problem seemed to be that I hadn’t worked for many years outside of the home and I needed a place to live and a job. I had virtually nothing to my name. I couldn’t believe the pressure I felt to find a place to live. I had been at the shelter too long and if I didn’t find a place to live and job I could end up on the streets with a small child. I filled out so many forms trying to figure out what options I had. It seemed this was standard protocol for someone that was starting over as I was. I had to fight fear, loneliness and even second guessing myself. I kept wondering if I had done the right thing. The road ahead of me seemed so long and somewhat impossible. I did have a strange new hope and well I had to hang on to something. I started looking for housing and that was my biggest obstacle. I had already found a job and a daycare I was pleased with. I wasn’t making much money as I was starting all over again. I had been out of the work force for so long as I had dedicated my entire life to rearing, schooling and caring for my children. I had been working on a small family farm and schooling several children. It really was like running a small corporation. The dynamics had been exponential. How to transition from that other life into this new one was mysterious and a bit frightening. There was at least one thing that remained the same. This was the way Father spoke to me. We have been very close since I had been a little girl. I have always had dreams that would come true and Father has always talked with me usually on a daily basis for virtually my whole life. This was something that I could always count on. Father has always been with me and helped me through every step of my life. This I hold precious to my heart. He is my breath and my reason to live. I have never been able to explain the fullness of this amazing relationship to anyone. When I would try to explain it people would look at me like I had ten heads or something. Well none the less I still had Father with me and I knew that He would never abandon me. I am going to share with you a dream that Father gave me that actually gave me much direction and helped me establish my new life.
My Testimony
So here I am hitting the hay like any other night. I fall into a deep sleep and my dreaming begins. It is always interesting as when I dream it feels like I am totally awake experiencing life as I do every day. I dreamed that I went into a neighboring town and I went to a store and I saw a sign outside saying now hiring. I went in to the store and a woman asked if I would like to schedule an interview. Then I dreamed I came in for the interview and that a few days later they contacted me and gave me the job. I dreamed several other things about my future that night. I dreamed of making a friend from there and so forth. Well when I woke up the next day I felt compelled to go into that neighboring town. So I did. And guess what. I saw a that store with a sign out front which said now hiring. I went in and a kind woman asked me to set up an interview. I scheduled it and came in. A few days later I was notified and I was hired. Several months later I made a new friend, for which I am still friends with to this day. It was like a déjà vu. I literally lived that experience twice. The two experiences were identical. It never ceases to amaze me how accurate Father is and how much Father loves me. He always gives me just enough to not give up, but never too much to make life too easy lol.
Prophetic Insights and Life Applications
When I look back at all of this, the path that brought me to this place, I stand in awe and amazement. Father gave me a road map and always gave me a heads up. He kept me a few steps ahead of the enemy. I am so thankful for His lovingkindness. I do have mixed emotions as well though. With every bit of the “amazing” there comes hardships and challenges. It seems that it is often bittersweet. I had never left a child of mine in day care. For me that was heart wrenching. It was so strange to leave my home every day and go to work. My heart of hearts was to be at home with my babies, to teach them and to invest every second of my life with them. This world was so different than the world for which I had been born for. I had a plethora of emotions ranging from anger to excitement and everything in between. I had started experiencing many firsts. I had been isolated for so long that I realized that there was a whole new world to explore. I was forever learning about the world around me. I had never lived in a city either. My country town had like 500 people in it. My biggest concern was the coyote or the wolf. I never really saw people other than my family. Now I was in a city, taking my child to day care, working at job and Supporting myself for the first time In my life. I had no idea how many lessons Father was working on teaching me. It seemed I was on an educational fast track. The lessons are never easy, but always worth it. I just had to keep telling myself that Father was in control and that I needed not worry about anything else. This lesson I am still trying to Master.
I would encourage you all to hang in there. We all have our lessons to learn. We have our amazing and our trials. In all things I have found Father to be worthy and loving. He is always there with us and He is for us. God is love.