I feel led to share with you how many times I question and wonder about what my purpose is and what Father’s plan is for my life. I am always asking Him things and He does answer me after I finish my rant. Here is an example of one of these moments from 2005. I am first writing my questions and secondly putting down the response I got from Father. Father often will respond to me in written words that he places upon my heart and then I will write what comes and then I will read what was given to me after it is written. Other times Father will give me dreams or visions. This is an example of words that were placed upon my heart. My questions begin as follows.
“Father, these times are unknown to my human nature, yet quite compelling. I feel overwhelmed with energy and the feeling that I have to do something. I awake and feel like I have forgotten something very important. I wake up and literally my heart is racing and I feel like my dream is more real than my perception of my wakeful moments.”
“How do I keep my mind pure and prevent the infiltration of the enemy? Why do I have anxiety about being different? Was it ever easy for the your prophets to relay your messages? Were the prophets every truly accepted by people? Did the prophets ever feel overwhelmed by your power that they saw, yet did not understand? They saw, knew and used your power! Yet, were they cognizant of the massive ability of this power? It is like I need to depend completely on you Father, not to go insane with the thoughts going on in and through me! Yet these thoughts and my mission are desirable. What a paradox! Give me strength oh Lord! I love you Jesus with my entire heart. I WANT TO WALK WITH YOU!”
This is the response I Got from Father. I share this only to show you all that it is possible for you as well to talk with and get a response from Father.
Father’s Response:
“I LOVE YOU!!!! BELIEVE ME CHILD…. I LOVE YOU! I CRADLE YOU! I BEHOLD YOU!”
“Nothing I give to you will be more than you can handle with my strength, you are as a withering flower in the dried up end of its life, dead and ugly. As I, in my power, pick up the dead flower; I(Jesus) will pick you up and in my glory I will live through you. You will be my voice and you will demonstrate my “abounding love in the name of Jesus”. You will be known for the demonstration of my abounding love. This demonstration will be done in my name.”
So here you have a snippet of one of my rants before Father and his reply. This really is an example of my daily rants. I have no idea why it is so difficult for me just to believe and walk unscathed. I hope that someday real soon that I can walk with more faith and have less questions. I can say though, that I really do love Father with my whole heart and I really do desire to accomplish all that I was born to accomplish. It seems that at this juncture in my life, that things are lining up and this world is winding down. I don’t know the when, but I do feel that shifts are coming and great changes will be known.
©2019 Jennifer Wallace