March 27, 1988 Dear Jesus, I need your help My life is so full of stress I don't feel your love anymore I don't have your happiness I want to give up Go back to my old ways Forget about you Jesus And just pass the days I tried it for a while Living in unforgiven sin But I was so unhappy There seems to be no way to win I can't be a good daughter Or be happy doing it the world's way I tried living in both Living like this I could not stay I am so afraid to go totally for God I want to have lots of friends Yet I want to give my life to Jesus And be able to go where He sends It appears to be so easy But my flesh is weak My desires are all wrong It is Jesus I want to seek I remember what it was like To be totally with my Lord Why is it so hard to go back? Or just simply read His word? So many excuses I have made Yet He is my very own Daddy!! The Almighty, the King of Kings Why do I make it such a tragedy? I have free will It's up to me I pray to Father for help So that I might be able to see Help me to stand up so strong In your most glorious light To have such faith To survive and win the fight ©Jennifer Wallace 2020
— Poetry —
It’s Up to Me
December 1, 2020
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