Do you ever wonder how God works in everyday life?  Well, I want to share with you a snippet of my life and show you how Father accomplishes his will in my life.  This article I believe will have a multifaceted approach.

 Let me tell you that Father started telling me I would write this several days ago.  He had me observe things and jot little notes down.  He gave me intense feelings and desires to express myself in writing.  These feelings got stronger to the point where they overpowered my thoughts and feelings. 

So many levels of understanding and so many topics were all swirling around together making some fantastical flavor of ice cream or magnificent button soup. 

I have at this point no idea where this article will take us.  I am quite excited about the adventure that is just beginning. I can feel the excitement and anticipation for this grand adventure to begin.  You see at this point, the sky is the limit.  I never know what Father has in store for us.  That is the most amazing part of being a writer for the Creator of the Universe.  I never know what is in store for us.  It is as exciting for me to learn these cool new things as it is for you all. 

 I also can recognize that this is super important because my word processor is being laggy and annoying.  Every time I have something important to do for the Kingdom of God, my computer suddenly begins to act up.  This is not the case if I simply want to play a video game or just peruse the internet.  You see Father has been getting me ready to write this and the enemy has been trying to distract and annoy me into giving up on this adventure. 

It has been quite a while since I have written anything of great significance.  So, I am quite sure that there are many frowns going on in the supernatural world of darkness at this very moment. I often asked myself why the dark world puts so much effort into trying to distract me or stop me.  I figured that they must be afraid of what I am writing if they are trying so hard to keep me from actually writing it.  I guess it does make sense though, I mean this information is coming through me from the Holy Spirit.  So when I start to see a pattern of distractions and obstacles, I may get frustrated, but ultimately I view it as confirmation that I am on the right path.  It makes me more confident and try even harder to make sure Father’s messages get to where they are supposed to go.  God’s insight and wisdom are powerful.  It makes sense why our enemy is so afraid for us to become wiser and empowered with knowledge and understanding.

 Ok, so now I’m trying to sift through this swirling database up in my mind to determine a place to start.  I will do my best to accurately portray how Father interacts with me and leads me by the Holy Spirit.

A few days back, I was working through a lot of pain and grief.  You see every year I have an amazing visit with my youngest two lovely children.  I have never understood why it turned out this way, but for now, Father has allowed it to be this way.  Every September I have to send my children back and this process of “losing” them is always excruciating.  It doesn’t matter that I know it is coming, it’s a painful adjustment for everyone.

Every year when they have to go back; my heart breaks and my soul cries out in horrific pain.  It takes me a hot minute to adjust my life back to the quiet and loneliness that creeps into my heart after they leave. 

It is a pain that is so overpowering that it is impossible to adequately describe.  I am sure that very few people in my real in-person life can fully understand what my heart endures at this juncture. 

I really don’t expect anyone to fully get it, just as I cannot fully understand everything that everyone else has to endure in their own lives. Father does use this as an opportunity to teach me skills and help me grow.

 I was trying to figure out a focus point.  If I can focus on something outside of my circumstance then it will help my heart harden off, you know kinda cure itself, so it isn’t so tender in that area.  It was during this time that I started to feel the call to write this. 

The next morning, the first morning without my children, I received a text.  This text was a youtube video that discussed the verse that said, “Jesus Wept”.  Well, other than the fact that I had done some weeping myself, I didn’t really find this all too relevant.  I kinda dismissed it and continued with my day. 

Later I had a discussion with a friend.  We ended up talking about the verses surrounding the verse “Jesus Wept”.  I thought it was a bit interesting that it came up again in topic.  I did not bring it up, by the way.  It was completely random, or so I thought. 

We then began to discuss that I keep seeing 3:33. That day I sent another friend the 3:33 in a messenger message.  It’s just a thing we do.  It then appeared to show up next to my friend’s name on the main screen.  It stirred something in my heart at that moment.  So much so that I felt compelled to tell my other friend about it.  When I did she said the number in scripture had to do with the promised land and obtaining it.  This was some great news.  I had really been struggling with a situation and this seemed to be Father’s answer to me. 

Later in the evening I was alone and decided to scroll through my Facebook feed.  Well, the first post I come across was only two words!!  “Jesus Wept”  The third time got my complete attention.  I knew that Father was indeed sending me a message.  What that message exactly was, was still a mystery to me.  I mean I knew Jesus wept, I also knew it was the shortest verse in the Bible.  My question still remained as to why I was being told today that “Jesus Wept”.  Remember how earlier in the day I had mentioned to my friend about the 3:33 thing?  I had messaged her about how it stood out to me.  It was at this time that I felt compelled to delve into the story of Lazarus.  I decided to read about the story of Lazarus where Jesus wept.  I found that it was in John Chapter 11.  I decided to read the entire chapter and see what I could glean from it.  I was actually reading John chapter 11, verse 11 when my friend messaged me at 11:11 in response to that 333.  She said the number in scripture had to do with the promised land and obtaining it.  This was some great news.  I had really been struggling with a situation and this seemed to be Father’s answer to me.  This was a powerful revelation to me!!  All praises to my King of Kings!!  My true love, my hope, and my salvation!!

It stood out to me that this verse I was reading  John 11:11 was being read at precisely 11:11 and that my attention was brought to it by the little bing made by my messenger notification.  If it hadn’t happened exactly like that then I would not have noticed what all was going down.

  I then asked Father to show me exactly what He was trying to teach me.  I told Him you have my attention. 

There were a few other strange occurrences that had happened during the past few days.  One was that I had made a new friend with whom I was texting a bit too.  At this moment I was reminded to review all the messages that I had received from this new friend. 

This new friend had shared some very encouraging words with me.  I am compelled to share with you all what some of these words of encouragement were. 

To start I was encouraged to follow my dream to become a full-time writer.  I was reminded of the time when my Mimi was dying, she chose to call me and make me promise to get my works published.  So, in all actuality, I promised my grandma, while she was dying that I would pursue a career in writing. 

She told me that the gift Father had given me was not meant for my edification, but for the edification of Father’s creation.  She said it was selfish of me to keep it all to myself.  I had not looked at it from that perspective before now, it actually made total sense to me.

 This is why I made that promise to her.  It has been like 18 years since I made that promise to her.  I am still writing, but I haven’t attempted to get things published.  I have established a website as a beginning attempt to bring this promise I made into a reality.  Talking with my friend brought all of this to the foreground and lit a fire in my soul to actually start making things happen.

This friend also had empathy for my current situation.  He helped me to work through my sadness and loss.  He encouraged me to go with my heart and stay positive.  He emphatically expressed to me that everything would work out.  He said if you don’t want to be stopped, you won’t be.  He encouraged me to stay on this path and to be strong.  He also helped me to look at my current situation in life and face the reality of it head-on!!  It almost seemed a bit harsh, but it worked.  It motivated me to take some steps forward on my amazing life journey with Father. 

Then Father said that it was very important for me to understand what was being said in John 11:11. I asked Father why it was so important.  He said to me that there was a relationship that I thought was dead, that He intended to resurrect.  I was like ohhh really?? 

As I was pondering the current steps I was making with Jesus, I realized that this was a somewhat new approach He was taking.  I really do love how dynamic my relationship with Jesus is.  I have learned by now that I never really know what is coming next.  I have seen the sea get parted in front of me when there was no other way.  I have seen the impossible become possible many times in my life.  I have witnessed life-giving miracles, healings, and blessings.

 My walk of intimacy with Jesus has been heartfelt and powerful.  It sometimes is a slow dance with me in His loving arms and other times it has been a fast race with us running for our lives.  Sometimes we sit in my garden and have tea together and I tell Jesus about my day, other times I am on the floor crying my eyes out while he catches my tears in a bottle.  One thing is for sure, our amazing adventures never stop.  They are never boring.

 My latest instructions remained and I was to be alert and aware.  I was kind of taking notes on the conversations I was having and remembering them.   I was to be very careful about how I spend my time and make time to ponder and take notes.  I was also instructed to read some specific scriptures.

 I live my life awaiting the next instruction.  In many ways, it makes my life much simpler, as I only really ever have to listen and obey.  It is not complicated at all.

 I was reminded that we are merely the artwork.  What painting can brag about its very existence?  Can that painting say I am so beautiful because of what I have done?  It surely cannot.  Its design comes from outside of itself.  It cannot, therefore, boast of how it appears.  It cannot have self-pride at all. 

We are all a unique painting, painted by our creator, the great artist!!  Nothing we are was birthed out of our own self or abilities.  All that we are, what we can do, or how we look even was given to us.

 We cannot brag or put others down.  We should never compare.  Each of us was created on purpose and by design. 

We should not insult our creator by complaining nor should we ever get puffed up if we think we are all that something!! 

Now that we have established that we are who we were created to be by design, this simplifies so much.  Now we just need to learn to hear our father’s voice.  You know that His sheep know His voice and they follow Him. 

So really as a child of God, we only need to listen and obey.  Moment by moment we listen for instructions and continue doing the last instruction until a new one is given.  This is how I try to operate in my everyday living. 

This process continued for about four days.  I had many very interesting conversations.  With each new conversation, I gained some fresh insight.

Not only did Father bring pertinent topics up in my conversations, but as I was opening up Microsoft word, I had a bunch of files over to the left in my autosave section.  They always appear every time until I decide what to do with them.

This time I felt compelled to “clean it up” so I looked into it.  Normally I don’t feel like I have the time or the desire to bring each one of them up and “handle” them. 

They had literally been there for eight months.  Yikes, I couldn’t believe how time passed so quickly.  I found something that I had apparently been writing.  It was ironically based on a conversation I had had with a friend. 

I really don’t remember who it was with and I was surprised I had completely forgotten about writing it.  Now it is on my screen, and I peruse through it and I realize that Father wants me to incorporate it here. 

Do you see how Father works with me?  Everything is calculated.  Everything He instructs me to do has a purpose and proper timing.  I have been asked to buy something only to dig it out three years later when I absolutely need it and have at this moment no means for acquiring it. 

Just a couple of days ago I was compelled to do some work with pictures.  I got them printed out and I got a few that were larger in size.  I got 3 5x7s and I got one 8×10 and lots and lots of 4×6 prints.  I wanted to buy some picture frames for the wall, but I didn’t have the proper funds and I was told not to buy any frames. 

When I got home, I was instructed to look in the garage with my stored wall pictures.  With my extra pictures were a few collage photo frames with no pictures in them.  One was for 5×7 photos, and it would house 3 of them.  Another one matched the frame with the three slots, and it was 8×10.  Finally, that last one had many slots that would house my 4×6 pictures in it.  Do you see how Father works in my life and makes everything happen perfectly? 

I had felt compelled to get these frames like four years ago.  I had even asked Father why I was holding on to these frames and not being instructed to use them. 

Well, Father used them as a  healthy therapy for me.  It was fulfilling to look through the pictures of my loved ones and create a collage with them all in it. 

This helped me work through my emotions of grief and loss.  It helped me remember all the good times I had this summer.  It helped me appreciate what Father had given me, even though for this season they were gone. 

I just want to remind you that this written work is an adventurous journey in and of itself.  I don’t usually write in this manner, but I am just following instructions from Father.  This really is a snippet of how Father works in my life.  So just going with it, really is my act of obedience.  I really wonder if Father isn’t going to have me jump out of a plane with a parachute on next lol!!  My relationship with Jesus really is crazy like that!! Hehehe!!

Now back to that article that I had begun to write back in January of this current year.  I had been studying James 3:8. This scripture is about taming the tongue.  I guess it would be better to say that no man can tame the tongue.  The Holy Spirit can though.  Here are the words that were given to me eight months ago.  They have been waiting for distribution for long enough. 

Have you ever set out to do a little study of scripture only to find the one you are studying is a bit ordinary or extremely familiar?  Well, that was me this evening!!  I am almost embarrassed to reveal my somewhat trite-like attitude.

 Because I am who I am and I am always ready and waiting for an adventure in the Lord, I pressed on through it.  I opened my heart and my mind to be taught and I obeyed the leading of the Holy Spirit. 

     Can I tell you that I have never been let down when I obey the leading!!!  In fact, I usually end up utterly mind blown.  This lesson I learned was quite multifaceted, here is why.  First, I learned that you never know what lesson you will be taught regardless of what, if any preconceived notions you may have.  Second, I learned that unexpected gifts and treasures are all over the place, just waiting to be discovered.  Thirdly, I learned the meaning of the actual scripture. 

     Because this experience was so profound to me, I feel compelled to share this with you as well.  My prayer is that you would receive as much blessing from this study as I did. 

James 3:8

New American Standard Bible

⁸ But no one among mankind can tame the tongue; it is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

     At first glance this scripture seems quite self-explanatory, doesn’t it?  Well, just wait!!  I was studying with a friend.  This friend shared with me what the Holy Spirit revealed about this passage of scripture.  Here it is. 

     This scripture perfectly expresses that we all have difficulty keeping our tongue tamed or in control.  Now we know we are likely to run into a situation, on a daily basis, for which this verse must be applied. 

With this in mind, it was revealed that as a result, a poison of negativity or darkness is likely to be dispersed into our life and reality.  This awful spoken word can really hurt us if we are not prepared ahead of time.  I thank God that we have this verse to be ready and protected. 

You see, this verse really shows us how much grace and forgiveness we should be ready to embrace.  We are being forewarned that situations such as these will arise in our everyday lives.  So, the next question was,” How do we respond in grace and forgiveness?”  How do we apply this verse to our lives? 

First, I would like you to consider this statement.  “What a man says, defines him!”  This is extraordinary in-depth and wisdom.  We really need to be careful with the words that we use.

  I believe words have the power to bring life or death.  Jesus brought this world into existence by speaking it.  Consider now again how powerful words are.  Now apply the construct to the statement “what a man says, defines him!”  We have great power with our words, and we must carefully choose these words as they will define us. 

So now I challenge you to carefully speak words that bring life, blessings, encouragement, joy, and Hope.  What if we set out to combat the curses swirling around in the air out there with words of love? 

I once had a vision of words as if they were alive.  I saw The Word of God being spoken out loud. These words were swirling about here and there. 

These words were either of love or darkness.  If they were pure of heart, they would actually swallow up the dark and cursed words.  I love to picture in my heart all the negativity and darkness that are being consumed by the light every time my mouth opens with words of life!! 

I challenge you to go forward from this day on choosing to bring life everywhere you go, which will also consume the dark curses uttered by those who do not have a controlled tongue.  This is the extraordinary power we have.  Let us use this power to make the world around us a better place.  In this better place, the light will prevail.  With more light comes more understanding.  This understanding always leads to Father and His amazing love!!

       I am keeping with the instructions I have been given and I am keeping this article in a specific order for which the words and concepts were revealed to me.  This truly is a picture of how Father works in me and through me. 

       As a result of all that I have spoken upon already, all that has been swirling around in my spirit and soul, and all the new things popping into my head right now, I give you the assimilation of the above and seemingly all that my journey to Father has taught me thus far.

 The following is the culmination of the past four days and beyond.  So here it is. 

Are you tired of being alone?  I really don’t even mean completely without people around you, but I mean alone in essence.  Like, do people really know who you are at the soul level.  Or is it more likely that they know your façade?

 I wonder how many people really allow anyone at all to see their true nature. When people don’t allow anyone to really see who they are, then they are living in a self-created fairy tale.  This lack of being genuine has extreme consequences.  The result renders a bunch of people responding to and liking a “you” that isn’t real. 

The problem here is that all the acceptance and accolades are for the façade and therefore you really can’t internalize the acceptance. This may fulfill you for a little while, but in time your soul will begin to cry out as it feels isolated and alone.  You can really only lie to others and yourself for a short period of time, then it will hit you where it hurts deep inside your soul.   

Any connection that you think you have, isn’t real.  You really don’t connect because you are not putting your real self out there.  This altered persona that you are broadcasting actually alters how you feel about others as well.  It is like you sense deep down that you know you are not being honest about yourself, and you are likely to suspect that others are not being honest about themselves as well.  This lack of honesty prevents you from really trusting anyone else, or anyone else trusting you. 

Now that we have an understanding of what seems to be the reality of a lot of people, we can begin to discuss what the ramifications are for living in such a way.

 When we are not genuine and real with others, even those that are the closest to us, we prevent ourselves from truly connecting with anyone. 

I believe that we were created for connection.  Our soul house structure is all about connection.  We can connect with people on many different levels.  Prayer is one way we can connect with someone else. 

Prayer is powerful and when you pray regularly with another person you can build a powerful connection with them.  This is also why we are warned not to whoremonger around.  Physical connections can create a dangerous liaison with another person to whom you may not want to be soul-connected.  These connections can cause more harm than good when not done According to Father’s ways. 

If we have been fake to most or all people and we join together with others with a façade on, then we are not truly known, but there is enough of a connection made that we can make a trail for the demonic entities to travel on.  These pathways could be endless and be an opportunity for darkness to sneak on in without you even realizing it. 

In this modern world, we are very desperate for connection.  The fake world we present to others and is presented to us in return I believe is why it is so desolate and lonely for nearly everyone these days. 

So here we are desperate for a connection, but we are unwilling to be vulnerable and trust.  Without trust, we can’t really earn trust either.  I mean seriously if there is a shortage of honesty, why would we trust? 

We are lacking in connection, this I believe is a core need for humans.  So how do we connect to others in this upside-down reality we live in?  How do we become comfortable enough with our own self to honestly express who we are and no longer portray a façade to the outside world? 

We have become so afraid of being alone that we create a false world of being together.  In this false world, we are not connecting with others, we are just existing in the same space performing some of the same tasks or activities.  In the world of sociology, this is considered parallel play. 

It is enough to fool ourselves into thinking we are connected, at least on the outermost level of our cognitive functioning.  Unfortunately, our soul does not get any fulfillment at all from these superficial behaviors. 

This type of living will eventually lead to illness.  This illness may be of the mental type or of the physical type.  As a result of these illnesses, we often feel the need to self-medicate. 

Self-medicating is often done through substances such as street drugs, alcohol, or some other form that dulls how we feel, or completely wipes out our ability to feel altogether. 

It seems the only acceptable feeling is anger at this point.  Why are we trying to numb or block all of our God-given feelings? What has happened? 

Feelings are a gift from Father.  They actually make us human.  Now we have a whole lot of people who are now covering and or blocking out all feelings. 

Without these feelings, it is nearly impossible to make genuine lasting connections.  It is impossible to meet very pertinent basic human needs.  Now that we are unable to process feelings, as we have been numb to them for a very long time, we can no longer meet some core human needs.

 Then we throw Father into the mix.  We are now supposed to somehow connect with an abstract concept of some distant deity.  We are supposed to figure out how to connect with a God when we can’t even connect with a person that we can see directly into the eyes of, or listen to with our own ears, or touch with our own hands and fingers.

 How are we supposed to figure out how to be with an abstract God when we can’t even connect with the concrete existence of Humans.  Are you tracking with me here?  We have become a race of people that can not or will not connect with anyone. 

We are full of fear, anxiety, and mistrust.  We question everything and everyone.  This in my opinion has been created by the horde of darkness. 

You see if we are truly alone in society, and we are devoid of feelings most of the time, then we will lack intimacy and the ability to be intimate.  Relationships whether with Father, another human being, or even a spouse will be nearly impossible.  Without these relationships, we will not be high-functioning healthy human beings.  So now that we are aware of our current condition, what is the solution?

For generations, we have had this solution examined.  Many have come up with their own ideas on how to avoid being alone and how to be healthy in mind body and spirit.  This could also be stated as the soul, body, and spirit. 

Many have concluded that we can accomplish this wholeness without Father.  I disagree.  I believe that we were created by Father.  I believe that we were created with an intense internal need for intimacy with our creator, like a deeply hidden program or something.  If this is not fulfilled, we go about here and there searching to fill this deep void.

 It is much like how neurotransmitters function or for some of us like a shape sorter.  We have a very specific hole in our being that only the shape of Father can fit into.  Many of us try to fit a square peg into this ornate and uniquely shaped hole in our heart and soul.  You see this hole goes clear through our spirit, soul and flesh.  It is massive when it is unfulfilled.

 Once it is filled, it creates an environment that is fully capable of finding, maintaining, and successfully establishing meaningful relationships with others.  We are fully capable of feeling all our emotions.  We are capable of loving and trusting.  We feel safe and we feel full of purpose.  In Psychological terms we are self-actualized.  In all aspects we are healthy.

 We are then capable of becoming transformed and renewed in Jesus. 

Now that we know what is possible and what our greatest goal for earth living really is, how do we accomplish it?

We have to start at the very beginning.  We have to be able to first put our trust fully in the creator of the whole universe, the creator of all dimensions and time.  We must start there. 

We have to realize that this is not something you can accomplish by joining a religious society, or institution.  This is the beginning of a grand adventurous journey.  This is the beginning of an intimate relationship with the creator of the universe. 

Our Father speaks to us where we are at.  He speaks our own internal language.  This language may only be understood by you and Father.  Do not be disappointed if you share some personal experiences with others and they just don’t understand. 

That is actually kinda cool as you realize how unique and special your relationship is with Father.  Just as our fingerprints are unique to us and only us, I believe that our intimate walk with Father is just as unique and special.  I  mean really, Father is creative and extremely dynamic.  Why would He want to repeat something?  So, the way Father walks with you talks with you, and teaches you will most definitely be different from the way he does those things with me or anyone else on earth. 

I love this about Father.  Not only is it interesting and fun, but it also makes it fun to share with others as well.  I mean there are some very personal and private things between us and Father, but some things can be shared and enjoyed by our brothers and sisters. 

We can begin to share testimonies and praise reports.  We can ask for prayer and support from our brothers and sisters.  We now are part of a very cool family.  We are part of something bigger and greater than ourselves.  We begin to realize our God-given purpose for being here on this earth. 

This next bit of information I am about to share may be very difficult for some of you all to accept.  Since the beginning of time, we have had to face our innermost selves in order to delve deep into a meaningful relationship with our creator. 

We cannot deceive Father as He is omniscient.  It is impossible for us to create a false persona and get away with it with Father. 

The only way to walk this road of intimacy is to be willing to sit down and ponder.  We must allow time for us to get to know ourselves.  We have to look in the mirror and face who we are, the good, the bad, and all the despicable parts.  We must face the darkness part of ourselves. 

NOBODY likes to do this.  We must do this to be able to acknowledge that we need Jesus.  You have to face this.  We have to go through this in order to be cleansed and purified.  We have to go through this by ourselves in the light of Father and His understanding.  No one can help us or do this part for us.

 Once we face our own darkness and realize who we really are, then our growth and development can happen.  In ancient of days, this was considered Alchemy of the soul, during the 1600s this was considered by Sister Teresa of Avilla to be the intimacy of the stage of the soul with our creator.  Jesus called it transformation and renewal. 

However you choose to classify it or define it, it remains the same for all humanity.  We must face the darkness inside of ourselves, by ourselves (with the help of the Holy Spirit), and then ask for help from Father to make all that darkness disappear and become full of love. 

Once this has happened then we have opened up the door to our soul house and the divine housekeeper can begin the cleansing process.  As we are cleaned and put into order, we can begin to have more meaningful relationships here on Earth and we can understand and know true peace, love, joy, etc. 

Once we are filled up by our creator, then we are able to share the love with others.  We are then able to have lasting relationships with others. 

We are then capable of loving a partner.  These marriage unions are not two halves that create a whole, it is a whole joining with a whole.  Like two rivers running together.  Neither river goes away, it just becomes one with the other river, wholly they both join to form one massive and beautifully unique river!! 

These healthy marriages between whole people are a powerful union, a force to be reckoned with.  You can only imagine how terrified of such a union the enemy or darkness would be. 

You can now see why the darkness has placed so much emphasis on destroying intimacy and creating a fake superficial world. 

This goes out to all of you who are searching to fill up this massive void in your soul by your own strength with your own thought or solutions, you will never find what you are looking for anywhere unless you stop running from yourselves and look inwards first. 

This is why Father says to us, Be still and know that I am God.  So just stop it, all of it and face your own darkness, and look up to the light for salvation and truth. 

Once you have done this, you open a whole world of adventure and love.  You suddenly find freedom from the chains of bondage you once had.  You can now begin to explore your whole soul and discover all that is you.  You can discover all that is God.

 Finally, you can discover what it means to be intimate with your creator, in your own unique style.  You begin to write the story of your life for all eternity.  What an amazing adventure story, one of tears and joy, one of sweet victory.  It’s the greatest love story ever written.  You see you write it on your heart as you journey along this amazing path, we call life.

©10/30/2021 Jennifer Wallace